Wednesday, April 02, 2008.

11:16 PM
LOVES.

everyday is just an escape for me.

i wanted to tell her yesterday night. but i still lacked the courage to do so. i always thought it would be so damn easy to just tell her those few sentences. but, i was proven so fucking wrong. these sentences are the most difficult sentences in the whole wide world. it gets worse when i imagined her being disappointed in me, not talking to me and not trusting in me anymore.

i dont want her to lose her trust and faith in me anymore. i have lost that once, i dont want to lose it another time. this feeling inside, it's becoming more and more unbearable.

but, who can i turn to? no one seems to be taking this seriously. it seems to be a joke to everyone. oh well, i cant blame them. it's my fault afterall.

damn. this have got to be the worst period of my 18 years ever.