velvetcurtain

2008-04-29T12:52:00.001-07:00

SHIAT.
DAMN.
FUCK.

I JUST SPEND $150 AT FRED FLARE.

BUT, WHO CAN RESIST!

fuck. damn you online shops! im broke, fuck broke. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

2008-04-28T10:53:00.000-07:00

song changed to a chinese song. i know, very unexpected. but this song makes me feel relax. anyway, found this awesome site that sounds awesome accessories.

just spent another i-dunno-how-much. damn.

2008-04-28T10:42:00.000-07:00

went back to NYP today. haha. i miss all of them. felt awkward in the beginning cause too long never see each other already. but, after awhile, it felt so much better. haha.

and i got suan by hector loh. tmd. hahahahha!

im starting to really like qian ying's family. they treat me so well, especially the mother. damn nice i tell you.

you are my light when i fell into the dark.
thanks for being there for me.
<3

2008-04-23T09:29:00.000-07:00

我們真的還是好朋友嗎﹖ 感覺簡直就是陌生人。你說一﹐ 我都不會說二。以前﹐ 我想如果我這樣跟隨你﹐ 我們的友誼就會永遠那麼好。

現在想一想﹐ 覺得自己好笨。可能是太想和你保持良好的友誼吧。

現在我想通了。我不要再當一個只會順從別人的人了。以後如果我們再約﹐ 我不會和你多說話了。因為我在你心裡都不重要。

我﹐ 真的好傷心。

2008-04-18T09:35:00.000-07:00

hello world!

current addiction: GINTAMA!

damn funny i tell you. it's like the dumb version of Bleach. Gin is the main lead, with 2 sidekicks, kagura-chan and shinpachi!

shinpachi is a guy who keeps shouting but is the nanny for these 2 persons.

kagura-chan is a member of the universe's strongest clan. but she came to Earth to find a new purpose in life. she has a pet dog, which is a giant. haha.

Gin. fucking funny i tell you. the dumb version of Ichigo, Bleach.

he loves to read Jump. and while reading it in the second episode, he said: How i wish i have a Bankai.

zomg. i laughed for a good full 10 minutes i tell you. bankai leh. he is a samurai, but his sword is made of wood. zomg. go watch go watch. very funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnny.

okay. back to reality. went out with elysia. shopping ~ she tried so many clothes but only bought a few. and lucky her did not buy the bag that she wanted to get. cause, her 'favourite' classmate has a similar one. LOL! but, she got a burberry wallet ~ zomg! rich woman! haha. i like a wallet, but, expensive! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

saw fatz ~ haha.

okay. done with my updates. boring i know. ohya! i got my camera today! yeah-ness ~ will upload photos once i get them.

okay. bye.

2008-04-09T09:04:00.000-07:00

THE ATTACK OF THE WATERMELON FACE !

2008-04-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

does this make you hungry?

IT MAKES ME HUNGRY.

ASHTON OWNS!

I WANT THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

BORED BORED.

HAPPY 200TH POST, SAM ~

FUCKING

BORED.

LA.

MOS ~

2008-04-05T01:11:00.000-07:00

finally, the mountain turtle has stepped inside the open for many months' Ministry of Sound. after sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long. i must say im impressed. i love love the toilets and the trance area and the vodka lime. haha. but, i still prefer zouk. smaller place, more people, better music.

zouk should have:
MOS's toilets
MOS's round turning thingy in the trance area.

best. i will definitely go there every week. haha.

finally got to see her! damn happy ~

the empty street ~

when i came out from MOS, i fell in love with the outside. omg. damn fucking pretty ~ oh dear. i feel so turtle okay. i told grace to treat me as a foreigner. haha. den not so malu mah.

i made this caramel sponge cake using a cup! wahahahahaha. damn nice ~

and and!

OH MY FUCKING GAWD ~

VAMPIRE KNIGHT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-02T23:16:00.000-07:00

everyday is just an escape for me.

i wanted to tell her yesterday night. but i still lacked the courage to do so. i always thought it would be so damn easy to just tell her those few sentences. but, i was proven so fucking wrong. these sentences are the most difficult sentences in the whole wide world. it gets worse when i imagined her being disappointed in me, not talking to me and not trusting in me anymore.

i dont want her to lose her trust and faith in me anymore. i have lost that once, i dont want to lose it another time. this feeling inside, it's becoming more and more unbearable.

but, who can i turn to? no one seems to be taking this seriously. it seems to be a joke to everyone. oh well, i cant blame them. it's my fault afterall.

damn. this have got to be the worst period of my 18 years ever.

2008-04-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

i miss school.

today's the first day of school and everyone's back except me.

having this empty feeling inside me since i woke up. no one to blame, except me.

2008-03-27T09:26:00.000-07:00

im like typing in the dark cause:
1) the pig is sleeping.
2) more romantic
3) lazy to switch on the light.

went singing yesterday. haha. so long never go and sing already. actually wanted to go home club to support elysia but in the end, not many wants to go thus, canceled. sorry ely! i haven pass her her birthday present yet. shit.

caught horton yesterday too. haha. fell asleep in the middle. lol. so paiseh. thus, the 2 besties concluded that i cant watch cartoon and historic films. i will sleep. i remembered i slept during the tou ming zhuang. the one that got andy lau, jet lee and the handsome japanese guy whom i have suddenly forgotten the name.

i love ikea ~

i want to get a bed like this,

and these chandeliers are beautiful.

my cute little qianying listening to my ipod.

listening to good music starts from any age.

loot from ikea:

this mirror is such such such a steal! fucking cheap. $9.90 !!!!!!!!!!! and it is full length ~

this net, not a mosquito net okay! dont be so auntie-uncle. it is sooo romantic and so victorian era. lol!

this chair to match my red table that i bought months ago. haha.

back to....

恶作剧2吻

2008-03-23T09:05:00.000-07:00

irritating people.

suckers.

2008-03-18T09:40:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY
BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY

LOVE YOU MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY!

MAY WE HAVE MANY MANY MANY MANY MANY MORE HAPPY MEMORIES AND PHOTOS!

2008-03-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

DIE, DYING, DEAD.

GONE. BYE.

2008-03-11T07:44:00.000-07:00

genting trip with the people were fun. well, except the sick and vomiting part. i ate a full dinner and supper and vomited everything out. i even saw my crab stick and nuggets. i think i can glue them up and eat again. haha!

the trip up and down were both terribly horrible. up was bad cause i had a stomach ache and i had to bear for like, 40 mins? my asshole almost died. down was bad cause it was downright scary and it made me giddy. i finished a packet of orange peel and was sooooo lucky i didnt puke at all!

next time, just go for shopping spree. dont want to go genting anymore. super scary.

im watching 鬥魚 now. super shiok. i wonder where did the actors all went to. especially lan zheng long. handsome sia. LOL!

upload the photos tomorrow la. photobucket not working now. =.=

2008-03-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

i never wanted this to end.
but if it has to be in this way,
so be it.

2008-03-09T09:25:00.000-07:00

oh dear. my blog is kinda dead. haha. no worries. i shall revive it with tons and tons of photos!

first up will be the wedding photos from my dearest cousin cum god-brother cum ex-tutor's wedding on 8-3-2008.

it was a fantastic wedding. everything went as planned and everyone were happy for the couple. i suppose this is what love can do. change a person totally. i feel happy for them and wish them a blissful life ahead and i want a nephew/niece soon!

the arrival of the couple in the groom's parent's house.

serving of tea.

i didn't know my cousin could sing. haha.

their speech made me cry.

99 roses okay!

wedding dinner at:

I WANT ALL MY BEST FRIENDS TO SING FOR ME DURING MY WEDDING DINNER ALSO!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~ wedding. i always loved weddings. haha! genting photos up tomorrow. back to 恶作剧2吻. weeee

2008-02-21T09:06:00.000-08:00

with a carlsberg on one hand, i pine for my love one.

cant sleep. cant study. fuck.

2008-02-19T21:48:00.000-08:00

the mat friends of mine. LOL!

the beautiful night scene at vivo city.

my pink nails ~

lou-hei night at grandma's place last saturday.

my third grand-auntie. my first time seeing her. and im standing beside her. haha.

got my magazine from bee har ~

the most revolting medicine is on his hands.

saga sama looks damn cool

pon de replay ~

tora san looks as hot as ever.

MIYAVI ~

my new flame. ROFL.

ride with the rockers ~

i want to watch this. comments bout this show were super positive.

and of course,

*headache!

because of studying. im not studying now. im planning of what to do after i get kicked out of SIM.

2008-02-18T07:29:00.001-08:00

im feeling miserable.
damn it.

im having complicated feelings for you now.
why did you have to go?

2008-02-18T07:28:00.000-08:00

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but i wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still i have the pain i have to carry

a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

2008-02-10T06:24:00.000-08:00

im watching 我和僵尸有个约会I now. and these 2 china bodyguards can make a dinosaur come alive. wtf. it is sooooo animated okay!

im uploading my photos now. and photobucket is taking such a long time. haha. i gave up using rockyou cause i must upload the photos one by one. troublesome la.

anyway, it is the chinese new year again! weeee ~ but i didn't collect alot of hongbaos. sian. i only collected like, $500+? wahlao. can only use for 2 months plus. lol. im going for shopping tomorrow loh~ fast and efficient. haha. i dun even know whether i can wake up in time for school anot sia. too relax these days already. everyday wake up at 11. shiok-ness. haha.

i miss elysia and grace ~ all overseas now. i want to go japan! i dreamt that i was there x.x i want to go japan and watch lives! ALICE NINE, THE GAZETTE, MIYAVI, MUCC, JEALKB, SID, X-JAPAN(confirm crazy ~) and many many more. i always wonder whether they know they have fans in singapore or, do they even know that singapore exist? hai. why cant i be a japanese? haha.

people always judge me by how i look. i know i always dress weirdly and has lots of eye-liner. but, do you really know my character just by looking at my looks? i dress weirdly cause i don't like to follow trends and i like to mix and match. i draw lots of eye-liner because my eyes are small and i don't like to use mascara cause the crumps always get into my eyes and they irritates my contact lens. i don't smile cause im alone, who smiles when they are alone? you should see me when im with my friends. you will properly get a shock of your life. you will thinking: why this 'rock-punk' chick is smiling and laughing so much? i thought all 'rock-punk' people are suppose to be emo-looking? hello. those are the emo people. emo people don't smile, they have a face which says" everyday is world-end". get it?

you must be wondering why am i typing this? cause ALOT of my relatives asked me why i wear like this, draw my eyes until like this, why i don't smile, why i don't talk etc etc. im fed up la. i wanted to change my make-up and dressing but this is the style that i feel most comfortable in. so, i was thinking, why should i change for these people who i only meet once/twice every year? not worth it. i should be comfortable cause im the wearer, not them. ask them to suck my house's lizards balls.

damn. why is photobucket loading so slowly? and my show is still buffering. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

i realize that i love to read blogs. haha. yes, i know. im a big busy body. i love love to read these blogs, they always entertain me.

these are the famous bloggers.
xiaxue - her posts are entertaining.
roaring queen - she is pretty and i like her atittude, 'i only care bout me'
thy-dowager - roaring queen's sister. another pretty woman.
mr miyagi - need i say more?

friends.
naomi - her posts reminds me of life.
amanda (jesterbunny) - stylish woman i must say. she gives me inspiration on what hair colour to do next. haha.
trish (naomi's friend) - her posts too reminds of how cruel life can be sometimes.
levan (naomi's friend again) - his posts are funny. haha.

and many many more la. but these are the ones that i check almost everyday. another one, i guess everyone should know, or MUST know.
the all-so-famous:
www.perezhilton.com
this has to be the best of the best of them all! all the juicy hollywood gossips. i check this EVERYDAY. sometimes, twice or thrice a day. he posts everything and anything. i get all my britney spears's news from him. first hand. haha.

mini reunion dinner at fish and co(wheelock). haha. i made them wait for me cause i dyed my hair last minute.

reunion dinner at grandma's place.

the all kind of balls soup that i only get to drink during chinese new year. this is the best soup ever ~

first day of chinese new year.

guess how we took this photo when we only have 4 people in the house?

we used the auto thingy. haha. smart right?

movie in the night with jeremy and laijie. AH LONG PTE LTD IS DAMN DAMN NICE! KUNGFU SLAM DUNK ALSO ~ DAMN SHIOK~

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day out with mummy and sheryl today.

manhattan fish market at plaza sing has the best best seafood ever!

i will post photos of what we ate tomorrow. haha.

i purposely bought the kungfu dunk combo to get this cute lil waterbottle.

can you live without a computer/laptop?

just another day.

exams coming soon. shit. i have 6 papers.

i still love this photo.

2008-01-31T06:39:00.000-08:00

i should a 24inch screen laptop.

the mess and stress assignments can cause you.

the packaging lina's friend did for our marketing project. LOL!

day of HR's presentation.

ely says i look like a clown =.=

i went school at freaking 7am today okay. but i was still late. sickening jams. jam jam jam jam jam everywhere! and i thought i will be the first to reach! damn. we have so many forms of transport, bus, taxis and trains. why do the roads still jam? damn. i dun like jams. waste of time. we should learn how to teleport. but, considering the big population in singapore, do you think we will bang into each other while tele-porting? lol. i wonder how the situation will be like.

i have a very fucked up father.
im now an official fatherless kid.
im a Chua, my mother's daughter and my grandmother's grand-daughter.
no more father.
you will just be a stranger to me.

you disgust me like crazy !

2008-01-28T23:36:00.000-08:00

b.c presentation day:

i wore heels to school okay. i almost die-ed.

interview with Sally, the MD of New Accessories.

the only place where we can do our research after the interview:

jiahui dar-er-ling's birthday celebration at grapevine.
they made wait for 1 fucking hour. =(

this had to be one of the best cod fish i have eaten.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY DAR-ER-LING! LUBB EUU MANYY MANY WORXX

out with the besties on saturday ~

this pair of feet brings me to places i want to go.

to my friend:

you seriously disgust me alot. you made feel like a fool.

2008-01-24T06:27:00.000-08:00

i feel super shiok now. cause.

PRESENTATION FOR BUSINESS COMMS IS OVER ~ *dance the banana dance ~

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

lina's web-cam is L-0-V-E. shiok-ness. cam-whored during mdm aisha's lesson. haha. she must be wondering what the hell were we doing. HAHAHA!

post the rest tomorrow. tired. night people ~

2008-01-21T06:59:00.000-08:00

my current wishy wishes ~

stuck between the colours.

dar-er-ling, tell me what colour you want. i will buy for you. ROFL.

2008-01-20T09:10:00.000-08:00

following you wherever you go.

fuck. it's 0112. and im not planning to sleep. why? i dunno why. prolly still disturbed by a very fucked-up video.

fir, remember this tree?

i want to talk to someone, but, there seems to be no one who listens.
everyone is living their own life, no one wants to meet up anymore.
even since school started, there seem to be a gap between us.

ups and downs of life.
happy for now, unhappy later.

5 seconds, do we even give that someone 5 seconds.

the world just spins, not caring for its habitats.

crimson red roses,
beautiful yet dangerous.
the thorns,
love it when they prick,
that is their way of expressing their love.
through pain and blood.

2008-01-17T07:55:00.000-08:00

life is unpredictable.

you never know when it will end. you never know what will happen the next minute. you never know who will leave you next minute. you never know who will you miss the next minute, he could be your husband, could be your next bestie, could be your boss.

treasure every minute you have right now.

treasure every friend you have right now.

treasure every family member you have right now.

treasure every animal/pet or whatever animals you have now.

in short, life is short. live life to the max, regrets will only make you miserable. do things that make you happy, not sad.

just feeling kinda down recently. a relative passed away. not close to her but she's nice to me. so, she will always be remembered by all she knew or those who knew her. and im glad that she made my grandmother happy and also, by spending time with her and stuff. God will look after her now. so, no more tears and no more sadness as she is now in the hands of the Almighty One.

my connection's being a bitch now. update more tomorrow.

night everyone. treasure your fucking life. dont be a loser.

2008-01-11T06:38:00.001-08:00

IM SO GOING TO BUANG FOR MY HUMAN RESOURCE'S ASSIGNMENT.

2008-01-06T01:35:00.000-08:00

Well I was there on the day
They sold the cause for the queen,
And when the lights all went out
We watched our lives on the screen.
I hate the ending myself,
But it started with an alright scene.

It was the roar of the crowd
That gave me heartache to sing.
It was a lie when they smiled
And said, "you won't feel a thing"
And as we ran from the cops
We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)
How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)
Now will it matter after I'm gone?
Because you never learn a goddamned thing.

You're just a sad song with nothing to say
About a life long wait for a hospital stay
And if you think that I'm wrong,
This never meant nothing to ya

I spent my high school career
Spit on and shoved to agree
So I could watch all my heroes
Sell a car on tv
Bring out the old guillotine
We'll show 'em what we all mean.

Yeah yeah, oh

So go, go away, just go, run away.
But where did you run to? And where did you hide?
Go find another way, price you pay

Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah, Woah

2007-12-30T10:16:00.000-08:00

THE INVASION OF SID !

VO - MAO

GUITAR - SHINJI

BASS - AKI

DRUMS - YUUYA

MAO IS LOVE!

im so bored. it's 0242. im so dead. morning lessons next semester. confirm cannot wake up. urgh.

2007-12-29T10:09:00.000-08:00

finally got to watch WARLORDS today. not bad a movie. but too history for me. LOL. but still, takeshi blah blah blah is hot hot hot.

got to eat my long-time-no-eat mango ice today. the bowl got smaller. =.=

got my shoxx index from bee har today. omg omg omg omg. RUKI SAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. *drool

i bought something else that shocked the whole world.

FAINTED!

will post photos from the magazine and my new revamped wall in my next post!

2007-12-27T08:57:00.000-08:00

sometimes i feel, are you so self-centered?

went zoukie zouk on wednesday. haha. didnt get into phuture. damn shitty. haha.

watched I AM LEGEND with shoon in the afternoon, damn nice! omg. will smith~ droooool.

i look normal here right. haha. by 4am, i was all sweaty and shitty looking.

lost my camera pouch. shitty shit. lol. but i had ton loads of fun.

it was fucking packed. but still, the person who i wanted to see the most wasnt there. =(

anyway, all these photos are taken in far east. haha.

we were the latest to arrive. cause, we took our own sweet time. it was packed packed packed. almost die-ed.

saw amanda and her friend, rain, there.

waited for elysia and say kuan to come. was super super packed.

we cam-whored for awhile. dance floor no space la. anyway, retro all the night!

the birthday boy, gleny! <3

the besties! sorry if i neglected you two!

saw my long time never see elysia and say kuan. haha. forgot to pass her her christmas present.

jiahui gone-ed. haha. my poor shawl ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

group photo!

greetings from the purple obsessed!

R.O.F.L

hehehehe.

dan dan dan ~

jere ~ didnt know he can boogie so well.

last photo of the day:

mos soon ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

2007-12-25T03:44:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE !!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-23T04:01:00.000-08:00

I AM SUCH A FUCKING 《终极一家》 ADDICT.

it makes me not want to go jere's house now. shhhhhiat.

and i miss me sim people BIG TIME!

2007-12-22T09:07:00.000-08:00

people do not know how to appreciate until they experience someone worse than you.

went shoppppppppppppppping today! weeeeee. but the fucking antibiotics made my body sweat and sweat and sweat like there is no tomorrow. i was allll sticky and smelly by the time i reached home.

met mummy and sheryl for lunch and shopping at raffles place. bought a dress from topshop. fucking ex but nice.

lol. the photo is inverted la. my mum says i look weird in this colour, but i look nice too. =.=

met grace afterwards. haha. shopped and shopped ~ it was crowded everywhere!!!!!!!!! and i thought today, or rather, yesterday, was tuesday. lol. until night time den i realise it is saturday! omg.

bought a dress from hula & co, khaki stockings from top-shop(again!), a new devil casing for my ipody, a new hp pouch that is fucking cute. ohya ohya! my screen protector came out! wtf. like, first time okay!

haha. i love love this photo laaaa. LOL!

CANNOT WAIT FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-12-20T07:02:00.000-08:00

howdy mates ! LOL.

i got my geeky glasses today. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ haha. this is the expensive one. am goin to collect the cheap ones tomorrow. bought one for jiahui toooooooooooo. haha.

i really really like it alot! and the seller was damn damn friendly! haha.

cam-whored. LOL! love it baby ~

damn. my throat is still hurting. i sound like some cunt. the clinics weren't open today. dumb me went downstairs and wondered aloud: eh, why the clinic close so early? thought suppose to close only at 4.30? now only 3 lehhhhhh.

and i walked to another clinic that ah de went the other time and it is closed too! i was super frustrated okay! my cough is in the red-alert period. my phlegm had blood okay. almost fainted. got fed up cause pathetic hougang green only has that 1 clinic and that is the only clinic i trust. so, damnit. bought my lunch, ate only like half and watched the encore version of asian idol. i totally felt that hady should win. he was the only one who took the competition seriously and was the only one with the charm. the vietnam lady was pretty. the malaysian lady had a nice voice. i didnt understand what the phillipine lady was singing. totally missed the indonesian and indian representatives. haha. but still, HADY WON! WEEEEEEEEE ~

oh ya. the main point of this post is to say, i only remembered that today is a public holiday when i was inside the lift on the way home. damnit. how can i be so dumb. shittttttt.

2007-12-15T07:38:00.000-08:00

god. tomorrow is stay home day. cause, got KIM-JEONG-HOON!!!!!

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went for drinks yesterday with mother ely, mr say kuan, laijie and jiahui. grace asnd huiyang came late. haha. had ton of fun.

im really glad they mixed around. haha.

mother ely ~

the 2 who always bully me. cannot let them be too close. or i will be in danger.

poor laijie. he had to piggy back jiahui cause the dumb driver didnt know how to go into the car-park.

the taxi driver me and grace kana also weird weird one. talk non stop. i want to alight already, he still can keep talking sia.

didnt go for eoy. haha. didnt managed to wake up. woke up at 8 to puke, managed to sleep at 9+.

haha. i did my nails and they are obstructing my typing. haha.

brought shoon for the always-shiok ayam penyet. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

was supposed to catch the warlords. but the dumb dumb laijie bought golden compass instead.

2007-12-13T08:46:00.000-08:00

i totally own-ed the previous post. LOL. got it from shoon's blog. i scored 33/46 leh! W-T-F.

i realise that, people show their real emotion at the most crucial time of their life only. why is this so? why should we be afraid of our own emotion or, showing our emotion to the world? is it shameful or pride?

just finished watching why why love. gawd. the last episode made me tear like fuck. and jere-mi-ah laughed at me. =.= nice show! but, alot of draggy parts la. skipped here and there. did not watch episode 14. lol! the storyline is kinda expected laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. haha.

i miss elysia. my shirt stinks of chilli. shit. i need to go and change. but, lazy laaaaa.

what is the meaning of luh?

2007-12-13T08:39:00.000-08:00

46 things you ought to know if you were born in the 1970 to 1980

[1]. You grew up watching He-man, Captain Planet, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles, My Little Pony and Smurfs too..

[2]. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.The teachers said you must brush each side 10 times too.

3. You know what SBC stands for.

4. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in class.

5. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.

[6]. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP! when pressed..

7. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket.

[8]. Envelopes given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.

[9]. You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

10. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.

11. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

[12]. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.

[13]. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street .

[14]. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka (20 cents per pack), and Ding Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week. Not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.

15. You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.

[16]. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers .

17. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.

[18]. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'... you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.

[19]. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word.

[20]. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

21. CDIS were your bestfriend.

[22]. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised characters in 16bit colours walking about trying to teach you maths.

[23]. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.

24. Boys loved to play soccer with small plastic balls in the basketball court.

[25]. Teng-teng, five stones, chapteh, hentam bola and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...

[26]. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fish.

27. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Wally & Mr. Yakki. What abt Miss Lala??? And Zaki and Tini in Malay Textbooks?

[28]. We carry out experiments of our own to get ourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.

[29]. Every Children's day and National day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with 'Happy >National Day 1994'.

[30]. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother.

[31]. We wear BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes.

[32]. Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.

[33]. The worksheets were made of brown rough paper of poor quality.

[34]. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

[35]. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.

[36]. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.

37. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.

[38]. You see Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.

39. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.

40. Boys like to catch fighting spiders.

41. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.

[42]. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".

[43]. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

[44]. There were at least 40 people in one class.

[45]. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.

[46]. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.
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2007-12-12T10:58:00.000-08:00

im sooooooooooooooooooooo bored. i dunno what to do.

i passed my mpo, got a C.
i passed my stats, got a C.
i failed my bus comms, got a FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

wtf. pray hard that that isha is not my lecturer anymore. lina and sam choo failed bus comms too. LOL.

but, im proud of my mpo. haha. i feel so, accomplished. idk why also. haha.

i wonder how he did. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

i miss my mother alot. not my mum, shirley. but my mother, elysia chan mali chan. LOL.

fucking seducing sia. R-O-F-L.

where are theyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

i miss my alice nine.

esp,

listen to The Foxboro Hot Tubs. fucking good music.

p-o-w-e-r. now, my wish list will exclude ear plugs and include 'Alpha'.

night peeps.

2007-12-11T12:14:00.000-08:00

it is 0420 and im still awake. cant get to sleep tonight. damn.

it's gonna be a long photo post. haha.

went to this pub with ely and say kuan and his friends. haha. the 5 girls story will always be remembered.

ely, you totally look like a rabbit here.

and now my sis is micmicking you!

this hat, is made of paper. it is distorted already. all thanks to marcus.

shiny tooth you've got, te te.

my room with all the carton and stuff. my mum almost killed me. it was worse yesterday night. cleared the bags from 4pm to 1am. power right. LOL. and i have 4 extra bags. weeeeeee ~ F.O.C

went out with the bestie today. haha. siao dingdong. she talked to my barney and was caught in action by the waitress. she couldnt stop laughing. she was like:
shoon: barney, we eat bbq supreme chicken okay?
shoon knocking the barney's head and saying: OKAY.

=.= 2 more months 19 years old already. please be mature, like me. wahahahahahaha.

tried this top on at GAP. it is very nice, but, i dont like the back part cause need to tie. machiam pregnant woman.

im totally carving for love. i guess, days without love are different.

patrick is more expensive than spongebob sia. why?

cause im made of harder plastic. LOL.

spongebob says hello to everyone.

last photo of the day:

i totally love this shirt.

alright. need to go to bed. need to wake up at 1030 tomorrow. sian-ed.

night loves ~

2007-12-06T10:14:00.001-08:00

i look sucky in almost all of the photos. haha. so, pardon me ~

photo post!

pardon the face. fugly after cake-smashed and the shirt was just =.=

here are the birthday photos.

my mother ely and her pet. LOL.

the 2 small boys.

plus the besties:

now the SIM classmates:

P.S: I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE FUCK.

zouk ~

we didnt plan it, i swear.

out for lunch with god-parents and family. =D

this is what you get when the train doesn't comes.

she stole my flats.

some cute exhibits that we saw on the way to esplanade.

why no super man?

cause, there is no super man! only super SAM! muahahahahahahahahahaha ~

met the besties after that. haha. left my sis alone with my god-parents.

just in case you were wondering, no, the tress are not my besties.

i bought a havanna ~~ weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

they didn't have the shade of pink that i wanted. saw this orange and fell in love at once.

dinner at swensens with family and bestie #2, grace.

me loves ~

chill session at liquid kitchen.

from daniel, with love. haha. thanks dan!

your chicken smells weird leh.

it's going to eat me up !!!!!!!!

jiahui too !!

new target spotted: johnson!

the murderer

it even wants to eat, wait. what is this?

hmmm.

my BAPE sweater. fuck-ing nice ~

a random photo that i like:

okay. done. haha. meeting ely and say kuan later. more photos up tomorrow! provided that they are nice la! R-O-F-L.

next: updating of side bar. i think i want to change my lay-out again. should i?

2007-12-03T10:03:00.000-08:00

i bought an awesome camera today. but the colour is kinda awful.

i wanted to get this colour. fuck my dad.

the other colours.

it is the new sony T2. this camera is just awesomeeeeeeee. it has soooooooo many cool functions! wahahahaha. i like the pink one leh. kns one leh. urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2007-11-23T05:17:00.000-08:00

hello world.

i had a wonderful birthday. haha.

full update once i've got the photos and after the sucky exams of course.

shit. i haven done much revision yet. die-ed.

2007-11-20T08:08:00.000-08:00

IT IS LEGAL SUPERSAM FROM NOW ON.

YEAH ~

2007-11-20T03:52:00.000-08:00

will it be a disaster?
everyone seem, not interested.

i'll just sit in a corner and let the tears round.

this is just pathetic.

2007-11-19T03:41:00.000-08:00

2 more days to my birthday.

yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

harry potter first. studies second.

2007-11-17T06:10:00.000-08:00

the distance between us, is getting wider.
do you even realise it?
these years of friendship, seems to fade with time.

do you still care about me?

2007-11-14T05:13:00.000-08:00

exams are coming.
but, im still online.
fuck.
someone, please lock my laptop away.
shit.
i miss my cool guy.
2 days never see him already.
L-O-L.

fatz and i bought something terribly cute from ikea today.
super adorable.
but, my head is too big to go in.
lol.

i hope my hair will grow fast and furiously.
i dont want to celebrate my birthday with this hair.

and, jiahui and laijie, please dont quarrel anymore.
i seriously dun want you two to quarrel.

best friends for life, remember.

=D

2007-11-10T08:55:00.000-08:00

my updated wish list ~

1) MAC STUFF. TOTALLY LOVE THEM!
- bought a new eye shadow and a eyeliner. LOL.

2) EAR-PHONES.
- my new ear-phones die-ed on me. my ipod ones, cannot make it. LOL. i want those ear plugs ah.

3) IPOD TOUCH.
- SHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON ~~

2007-11-10T08:52:00.000-08:00

the hair is that bad.

thus, my torrid cap came into hand! weeeeeeee ~ im fuck tired. didnt study the whole day! die-ed. my study plan, gone case already.

got this photo inspiration from naomi ~ go get the book ~

bye guys. off to bed. church tomorrow morning. uncle's preaching. back to books tomorrow. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2007-11-06T07:35:00.000-08:00

MY HAIR IS OMG-WTF-IS-THIS-SHIT NOW.

but, i like the colour.

your smile made me smile the whole day. LOL. dumb ass.

2007-11-03T11:17:00.000-07:00

Are you lost, In your lies?
Do you tell yourself, I don't realize?
Your crusade's a disguise
Replace freedom with fear,
You trade money for lives.

I'm aware of what you've done.

No, no more sorrow.
I've paid for your mistakes.
Your time is borrowed.
Your time has come to be replaced.

I see pain, I see need.
I see liars and thieves,
Abuse power with greed.
I had hope, I believed.
But I'm beginning to think that I've been deceived.

You will pay for what you've done.

No, no more sorrow.
I've paid for your mistakes.
Your time is borrowed.
Your time has come to be replaced.

Thieves and hypocrites.
Thieves and hypocrites.
Thieves and hypocrites.

No, no more sorrow.
I've paid for your mistakes.
Your time is borrowed.
Your time has come to be replaced.

No more sorrow.
I've paid for your mistakes.
Your time is borrowed.
Your time has come to be replaced.

Your time has come to be replaced.
Your time has come to be erased.

you have successfully become the first person to make me want to forget your existence and treat you like dirt from now on.
you should never have existed.
my mother should have married a much more better bastard.
my family do not include you.
we do not deserve a pest like you.
you only bring heavy burden to us.

WE DO NOT NEED TO SUFFER BECAUSE OF YOUR MISTAKES.

LEARN FROM YOUR FUCKING MISTAKES AND DONT THINK CRYING IN FRONT OF US WILL DO THE TRICK ANYMORE.

CAUSE

I FUCKING HATE YOU NOW.

no more daddy.
no more laughter.
no more daughter-father.
no more of everything.

you, threw these all away.
you, dont deserve any more tears from me.

you, dont fit to be my dad, anymore.

2007-11-03T10:16:00.000-07:00

should i get this?

2007-11-03T10:01:00.000-07:00

i always had a happy family.
until the bomb came.
i handled it well, having no negative thoughts bout him.
but, as time goes by and mindset changes,
negative thoughts start to fill my mind.

why should we suffer because of his greediness?
why should we make ourselves look so pathetic because of him?
why should we deprieve ourselves to settle his stuff?
why should I NOT CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY BECAUSE OF HIM.

WHY?

im totally having the 'I-FUCKING-HATE-YOU for bringing this shit to us' mood now. shit.

2007-10-30T21:44:00.000-07:00

im feeling super jealous now.

cause, my cool guy talked to the another samantha. not me. why cant it be me?

cause i didnt for morning class today.

2007-10-30T09:19:00.000-07:00

i miss elysia.
i miss my cool rock god.
both didnt come school today.
fuckers. LOL.

hope my first ever MPO meeting will be fine. and of course, come school leh, ely and my rock god. LOL.

my torrid shirt arrived! but, loose la. sian-ed. dunno how to match also. sad-ed.

niway, meeting jiahui, laijie and jeremy later ~~~ weeeeeeeeeeee ~

2007-10-29T08:50:00.000-07:00

this is what we did during business comms today.

WEB CAM-WHORING

and, im like always doing this in school. the squeezing of my cheeks. LOL.

she loves me, alot. because she is scolding me E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y.

THE NEXT 4 PHOTOS. CAUSED THE 3 OF US TO LOL. IN CLASS.

just look at how big her mouth can be. can stuff fatz's head inside.

i bet alot of people were looking at us. LOL.

i like this photo. LOL.

THIS.IS.THE.BEST.PHOTO.OF.THE.DAY.FUCKING.CLASSIC.

all 3 of us were involved. ely is the face, fatz is the hand that is grabbed and me, the one who blocked the camera.

she is the crazy fish. im the pretty fisher-woman.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEOPLE ~

STOP SCOLDING ME! OR MY FURRY HAND WILL ATTACK YOU!

that's fatz's camera, which im going to steal someday.

random for a while. got this from lao chen's blog. haha.

proof.

haha. and, im soooooooo happy that my MPO assignment's deadline is next monday. wahahahaha. and, my FIRST group meeting is wednesday. wahahaha. LIKE FINALLY.

i learnt alot studying in SIM. like, looking at cute guys, presenting.

and, the stylo milo guy in my morning class, gawd. fucking hot today. ROCK GOD. lol. *blushes.

2007-10-27T20:27:00.000-07:00

i finally had some night life back. after a long and tiring 2 weeks of nerve breaking assignments. and the best of these nerve breaking assignments, are the compliments you get. haha. im still feeling very happy over the comments that we got for our bus comms la. haha. i haven done a presentation for months. so, im glad that i had good comments for my presentation. hahaha.

niway, went for a mini drinking session with ah gracie,and the long time no see, jasmine and hui yang. haha. hui yang's face went super red after a few cups. haha. had fun. meet up next week again okay! =D

and of course, went to meet bee har on saturday to collect my DD shoes!!!!! yeah ~~~ i was so worried that i cant fit into the shoes, cause i bought a size smaller. dumb me, i know. so, i cant wear socks. can only wear stockings. hahaha. but, very niceeeeeeeeeeee. WEEEEEEE ~ even ely and fatz say it is nice. haha. only shoon cannot accept this kind of thing. i even got ely and fatz to accompany me to the cosplay event in december. wahahahaha. they even want to cosplay okay. but i think shi quan will hate me and kiki will, i dunno what he will do to me. LOL. FYI, they want to put the shiny cones at their breasts there. act madonna only. HAHAHAHA.

left side: my foot.
right side: ely's foot.

had dinner with the BFFs at chomp chomp yesterday. shiok like fuck sia. haha. everything also got chilli. the 3 of us almost die-ed. but, fucking shiok.

the food is as power as ever. the or lua got bigger. LOL. last time me and jiahui can finish a $8 one. now, cannot. haha. the portion of the egg increased. fucking best sia, the chilli.

the only thing i regretted was, ordering the small sugar cane. cause, i ran out of sugar cane. haha.

the hokkien mee. THE NICEST OF ALLLLLLLLLLLL ~

$3 - 3 prawns.
$4 - 4 prawns and a banana leaf. LOL.

after the full meal, chilled at liquid kitchen. next time dun want to sit inside already, machiam no air-con sia. haha. but, we had fun. hahahaha.

this seriously, is disgusting. looks like shit. LOL. grace finished the whole thing cause none of us wanted to finish it.

chocolate martini.

my cosmoplitian. not bad. very cherry.

i always look so fugly in this light. haha.

but i had fun. all thanks to the 3 girls. shoon, grace and jasmine.

meet up soon yea!

drinking session soon, grace, jasmine and hui yang ~~~~ weeeeeeeee ~

off to bed. shitted too many times today. cant even go to work. urgh.

2007-10-25T05:56:00.001-07:00

can i post my birthday wish list now? hahahahahahahahaha. cant wait la. scared i forget. LOL.

number 1: POLAROID CAMERA! i can get the films myself but, it is better to come in a set. HINT HINT!

number 2: BURBERRY BRIT SHEER PERFUME! my sample one from her world, finish already.

number 3: ALICE NINE NEW ALBUM! didnt manage to order from bee har.

number 4: A BOYFRIEND! LOLOLOLOLOLOL.

number 5: A PAIR OF CONVERSE SHOES? SIZE 40. THANKS. hahahaha.

number 6: SPEND IT WITH ALL MY FRIENDS! =D

that's all for now. haha. will add on when i have new stuff. haha.

2007-10-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

best band ever!

okay people. for the long awaited proper update.

WE FINALLY COMPLETED OUR BUSINESS COMMS PRESENTATION! WHOOPEDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

all 4 of us did our best and received good remarks from the lecturer. she said our slides were great. the only thing missing was our survey. LOL. kinda expected her to ask us bout that. lucky elysia was smart enough to bluff her. haha. yeah ~~~~~~~ i feel so relax now. haha.

bee har told me that there will be a cosplay event at expo in december. feel like going in this:

the girl in white of course. she looks pretty! i love love her hair alot alot!

or, maybe as this guy from mucc. sorry. i like their music. but i dunno their names. LOL.

the one with the high cut shoes. because, MY DOUBLE DECKER SHOES ARE ARRIVING SOON!!!!! YEAH ~~~~~~~~~~~ bee har scared me when i met up with her to collect my magazine. she told me maybe mine is OOS. den she emailed me at night saying the shoes is ready for collection on saturday! yeah ~~~ happy like siao la. hahahahaha.

they are my inspiration. my inspiration gods.

just look at ruki. dont he look soooooo good. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ~

but i want to wear something lacy so i can wear my black lacy gloves out~~~~

but i dun want to dress a lolita. i dun really like. *no offence* i want to dress, harajuku-ly. LOL.

can someone give me some ideas?

i need them. maybe i'll drag fatz and ely there. LOL. shoon warned me not to bring her go. haha. she said she had enough already. but, i dun want to go alone siaaaaaaa ~

THE GAZETTE ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

okay. enough of them. lets talk bout the screwed up lecturer i was talking bout in my last post.

he is my accounting lecturer. i dunno what is his name. i only know, he's botak and i shall not mention the race. please note, this has nothing to do with race alright. i dun wish anyone to have the wrong idea or whatsoever.

it happened on tuesday. last tuesday. we were supposed to hand in our assignment. he is so fucking irritating and NOT lenient. cant he give chance? urgh.

we handed up our work on time. but, we forgot to put the peer evaluation form inside. he was standing IN FRONT OF ME. he shouted into the mike, SAMANTHA. WHERE IS SAMANTHA? i: WHAT?
he: looked at me. SAMANTHA. WHERE IS SAMANTHA. SAMANTHA.
i: WHAT WHAT YES?
he: where is your peer evaluation form?
i: *pissed* oh. forgot to put inside.
he: put inside now. put inside now. i told you all to out inside. why only got 2? where is the other one?
etc etc

HE FUCKING DEAF OR WHAT? I WAS WHAT WHAT-ING LOUD ENOUGH FOR OTHERS ON TOP TO HEAR OKAY. FUCKING CHEEBYE.

HE TOTALLY RUIN MY BEAUTIFUL NAME. THAT FUCKING ROUND BOTAK HEAD.

urgh. totally ruin my mood. left during break. ely and fatz, sorry for giving you girls black face. it's all that moron's fault. thinking bout it now, i feel angry too. stupid fucker. *&*^T%^%&(*&*^*&

i just have to post this. i fucking love this shirt. cant wait to wear it again!

2007-10-24T09:06:00.000-07:00

just here for a quick update before touching on my speech for bus comms.

nothing much happening. except PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT PROJECT. EVERYDAY NOTHING BUT PROJECT.

they have sucked out all the energy in everyone.

bunny to the rescue ~~~~~~~

i am ah cute number 1.

my pink hair has faded to white hair. it looks fugly sometimes. it looks like it has 3 colours now.

im a mat for today. LOVE THE SHIRT!

and the authentic watch that made ely and fatz pekceh. LOL.

ciao for now. it's getting late. still have many many things to do!

promise a full update tomorrow! when i have no more bus comms to worry! and, i'll tell you a story bout a screwed up accounts lecturer who is botak and round and *****.

2007-10-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

alrighty. for a full update now. haha.

been doing projects/assignments everyday in school now. morning to night in school. can die sia. didn't know we can be so 'nerdy'. LOL.

projects were meant to be dull, boring, life-less and tiring. well, it is tiring, but never boring or dull when you have bimbos as project mates, right fatz? LOL. we cam-whore, we shit, we eat, we crap, we bimbo, we nerd, we LOL, we disturb people, we scold people, we did everything you cannot imagine.

however, lucky we are serious when we are doing work. ROCK ON BIMBOS!

i love them! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ they totally make my days in SIM so much so much so much so much better.

enjoyable i meant. especially when fatz is around. she is the huh? what? girl.

'and the sea weed was this big'

'we must be serious you know.'

'oh okay. ' *continuing playing. LOL!

see la. they are trying to camoflauge my bangle. they bully me even when im sleeping.

my companion through boring lessons.

bang bang! all the evil gamblers are dead!

this is fucking true.

dressed up for clubbing. but, didnt go in the end. LOL.

if it wasn't for her, i think i wouldnt get serious with work.

but, she always bullies me.

web-cammed during our short break. please pardon fatz's bimbotic faces. LOLOLOL.

i think ely wasn't there. haha. if not, she will scold us for taking photos during project time. haha. she's like our mother like that.

pro camera face. LOL.

I LOVE THIS PHOTO. CAUSE GOT MY FACE! LOLOLOL.

classic mama~

us with trump.

that's all for the photos.

oh crap, i did the video for our bus comms project. but, got the watermark. FUCK! WASTE MY TIME ONLY! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. ANGRY !

anyway, the scene that i was hoping for happened today. my whole family accepted Christ. it felt kinda weird in the beginning, seeing my dad and my mum attending service. but, it feels great knowing my parents accepted Christ and my dad's in a cell group! woopeedo ~~~~~~

i feel, God has helped me in accepting and dealing with my problems recently. He proved it by making my family stronger and blessing us with strength and courage to overcome these problems. and i think, it's time to return to Church. i love God, i always did. it's just that, past nightmares came haunting me and i feel ashamed to step into the House of God, in fear of dirtying such a Holy place. but when i went to Trinity, God welcomed me Home. the place where i once belonged and always will belong, no matter how 'dirty' i am, He will wash me clean and love me always. and yes God, i love you always, and forever.

i never expect myself to blog on my spiritual life. i was always afraid to face God. no one knows why, except jeremiah. i always rejected delphine whenever she asks me to return to church. because i had a voice inside me, telling me, 'if you go to church, you will only dirty the place with all your dirty deeds.' i was afraid God will detest me. i was afraid everyone will know my dirty secret and despise me. but now i know, i was worrying for nothing. God can overcome everything. He will cleanse me clean, make me pure, make me strong.

i, sincerely thank God for everything, for making my life better. and also, showering my family with all His precious love.

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME! this was a verse that trinity children church, which i used to attend when i was a kid, kept repeating.

night everyone. my shit is coming out.

2007-10-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

hello world. the end is coming, soon.

2007-10-16T09:05:00.000-07:00

im feeling very down. something BIG is happening in my life now. i hate it. i dont want it. my fav song has become a reality.

i cant stand it. this stressful feeling. i just broke down and cried in front of ely and fatz. i couldnt take it anymore. i feel so horrible inside the bus today. i, dunno how to face the problem. i, dunno what to do. how to do. how to face it. how to cope.

i just want to live my old life back. is that so difficult, God?

2007-10-16T09:03:00.000-07:00

Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow
Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine palace
Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds
Tears of misery stain scar filled minds
Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories
Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why
Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes
Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night
Alone in thought, shaking
Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments
Screaming disbelief with no faith in site

my feelings now. do you understand?

2007-10-13T10:43:00.000-07:00

im done with my first question for MPO. shall continue with the second one tomorrow. im dead tired. my eyes are closing. pimples are breaking. eye bags become heavier. gawd. the most serious thing is,

IM BECOMING A NERD.

G-A-W-D.

i should have played fucking hard during the holidays.

trust me. this is the expression i carried on my face when i went to work today. even amy needed to joke to me smile. dun even talk bout laugh.

ni way, i wasn't caught today. WEEEEEE ~ cause, i pinned my hair up.

but actually, not much difference. LOL.

off to bed. OH GOD. BLESS ME WITH STRENGTH AND POWER AND BRAIN CELLS !

2007-10-12T21:53:00.000-07:00

i feel weird. it's like, everyone is leaving me.

and lets pray stupid OG accepts my hair. im feeling damn fucked now. all these assignments are eating my life.

2007-10-10T07:50:00.000-07:00

im so bored but no mood to do my assignments. fuck. this is seriously bad.

and, i think i lost my stats assignment paper. DIE.

im so demoralize now ~~~~

2007-10-10T03:45:00.000-07:00

I AM SO STRESSED UP THAT PART OF MY HAIR TURNED RED!

but im seriously stressed, though this is just the second week of school. everything seems to pass so quickly. gawdd. im chewing my nails already.

but i feel kinda accomplished today. cause, I LISTENED WHOLE-HEARTEDLY in class today. LOL. and i totally understand what the lecturer was teaching. haha. how i wish i can be like this for maths too. MATHS IS SO SUCKY.

there's this uber cool malay lady whom i always bump into on 74. she is like, goth and stuff. pretty! and she looks like amanda (jesterbunny)'s friend. serious. whoa. i would definitely love to be her friend! >.<

2007-10-08T08:10:00.000-07:00

warning. i look relatively ugly in these photos.

my body became hot after i drank 3 sips of tiger beer. always like this. damn malu. lol. didnt managed to cam-whore at home cause uncle jimmy reached on the dot. haha. managed to cam whore only at the hotel.

and i tell you all ah, the toilet is nicer than the ballroom. LOL. SERIOUS! when i was shitting in the toilet, got these 3 aunties came in. this is their dialogue.

auntie 1: WAH. THE TOILET VERY NICE HOR.
auntie 2: YA LOR YA LOR. SEE. GOT ORCHID SOMEMORE.
auntie 3: YA HOR. THE ORCHID SO CHIO. REAL ONE ANOT AH?
auntie 1: OF COURSE REAL ONE LA. BIG HOTEL LEH.
auntie 2: *takes the flowers and examine. WAH. GOT SMELL SOMEMORE LEH.

LOL. i was wondering what smell she was referring to sia. LOLOLOLOL. i wanted to burst out laughing already. almost die-ed from restraining myself.

the wedding was boring la. one of the most boring wedding ever. no entertainment at all. wah lao. was super bored la. eat eat eat. only eat. nothing but eat. the food was alright alright. not that nice.

pamela jiee looks very pretty hor. haha. see her only once in a blue blue moon. haha.

gabriel korr can't recognise me. 0.0

i look very different mah? it's only 3 years since i had black hair. LOL. long huh. i think i dye one time hair, my life span will shorten by 2 months.

ain't she fucking adorable?

FAMILY PORTRAIT.

THE HAPPIEST PEOPLE THAT NIGHT.

i wonder what will my life be without this BBQ. (big breast queen.)

MY OUTFIT. IM WEARING WHITE. it's a wedding afterall.

me and my lil precious breindel ~

gawd. you can see my pink bra!

i kept bugging shoon that i look like lixiang from devil beside you. LOL. she kept refusing to believe me. idiot! *&*(*&(^&(^(*&*

and fir says i look like some japanese woman. 0.0

2007-10-07T21:39:00.000-07:00

IPOD TOUCH.

Gorgeous 3.5-inch widescreen display.
Watch your movies, and photos come alive with bright, vivid color on the 320-by-480-pixel display

Surf the web with Wi-Fi.
Browse the web using Safari and watch YouTube videos on the first iPod with Wi-Fi built in.

Revolutionary multi-touch interface.
iPod touch features the same multi-touch screen technology as iPhone. Pinch to zoom in on a photo. Scroll through your songs and videos with a flick. Flip through your library by album artwork with Cover Flow.

what more can a person ask for?

GAWD. THIS NEW IPOD TOUCH IS THE POWER. IT IS SOOOOOOO FUCKINGLY COOL!

i want i want i want !!!!!!!!!!!

2007-10-07T01:18:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeee ~

im happily sucking on my MAOMI stripe while blogging. despite a bad tooth and a swollen tongue. my tongue is swollen again. i do not know why except it hurts whenever i eat. and gosh, i cant suck. it hurts like fuck. 0.0

i am stoning at home, with totally nothing to do except to wait for 5.30pm. it is bathing time. LOL. stupid cousin wedding dinner tonight.

i like saga sama's new makeup! damn nice! but it seems that he doesn't like purple. hmmmm.

he called the purple eyeliner 'lame purple'. LOL.

and nevertheless, shou looks splendid.

however, im very addicted to this guy now. his name is RUKI from the gazettE. gawd. the whole band is sooooooooo sexy!

i like ruki in this hairstyle. it is soooooooooo cool! i told ely that i want to keep my hair long and plaid my hair up like this. she was like: siao. LOL.

nah. closer look. wahahahaha.

RUKI SCREAMS HOT-NESS.
THE GAZETTE SCREAMS SEXY-NESS.
ALICE NINE SCREAMS CUTE NESS.
SHOU SCREAMS FUCK ME BABAY ~

>.<

MIYAVI SAMA ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ~

IM FUCKING BORED, STONED, TIRED, BORED. GAWD ~~~~

MERRY IS A GOOD BAND TOO. IM BORED LA. LET ME POST SOME PHOTOS OF THE BAND THAT MAKES GOOD MUSIC.

AAAAAAAAAH. DUN CARE ALREADY. GO AND DISTURB PEOPLE.

2007-10-06T11:01:00.000-07:00

after listening to alice nine, i feel much better. shou cheers me up with yami ni chiru sakura. cause he said my name.

2007-10-06T09:24:00.000-07:00

weeeeeeeeeeeee ~

i love my hair !!!!!! wahahahahaha.

it's back to the black people. with pink on the right. wahahahahaha ~

I FUCKING LOVE MY HAIR NOW.

this is just the beginning. the wedding's tomorrow. so, more photos tomorrow! some photos from the night out with the 3 people!

when the hair is still in the grass state.

i like this photo cause, it looks like i have a lip piercing.

watched RESIDENT EVIL. nice. haha. but i still find the first one nicer.

SHE IS HOT HOT HOT.

me and the very nonsense guy.

darlings for life ~

I LOVE MY HAIR. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ~

and my dad's nuts again. sometimes i wish, i have a better father. no one understands the pain. ='(

2007-10-04T20:18:00.000-07:00

shucks. my body has a standard waking up time now. this is fabulously 'G-0-0-D'.

im bored. uberly bored. i need soome life.

school feels kinda wrong this semester. the feeling, feels weird.

2007-10-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

fir tagged me. so i guess i just had to do it.

1. When is your birthday?
21st November.

2. How old are you now?
17+. eeeeeeeeeeeeee.

3. Where were you born?
although i wish i was born in Japan, but, im Singaporean. i still love Singapore thou.

4. When did you first celebrated your birthday?
my first birthday? hahaha. i still have photos.

5. When will you next birthday be?
48 more days. 21st Nov 2007. MAJOR HINT!

6. Did you remember getting birthday presents on your birthdays?
haha. sad to say, yes. hahahahaha. i love presents.

7. What are the 3 things do you want for your upcoming birthday?
GO FOR LINKIN PARK CONCERT. (GLENY ~~~~~~~~~~~~~)
CELEBRATE WITH MY BESTIES, FRIENDS, FAMILY TOGETHER. UNDER ONE ROOF.
HAVE LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS OF FUN!

8.What kind of presents you want for your birthday?
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
PSP! SLIMMING PILLS! SHOU! A BOYFRIEND! LOL.
no la. i will accept anything my friends and family get for me. it is the thought that counts. i would love to have a big big card with all my friends wishes on it. special wishes. not those normal HAPPY BIRTHDAY. those are boring. LOL.

9. Who would you like to celebrate your birthday with?
EVERYONE! =D

10. How do you want to celebrate your birthday?
A NIGHT OUT WITH MY DEAREST GIRLS.
A DAY OUT WITH ELY, FATZ AND LINA. (MAYBE MARCUS AND TRUMP.)
DINNER WITH MY FAMILY.
CLUBBING WITH THE GANG.
DAY OUT WITH THE DING-DONGS. (JIAHUI, LAIJIE, JEREMY, GLENY, KELLYN, JEREMIAH, JOHNSON AND BLAH BLAH BLAH).

People to tag:
ANYONE WHO IS BORED. HAHA.

2007-10-01T07:49:00.000-07:00

MARILYN MANSON IS THE SEX.

it feels so gooooooooooood to hear his music at night, after a half-boring half-exciting first day of school. haha.

you and me and the devil makes 3. lalalalala

I CONCLUDE THAT,

I AM A DIE HARD FAN OF ALICE NINE AND THE GAZETTE.

i don't breathe when i watch them perform. GOD. THEY ARE SOOOO SEXAY ~.

ALICE NINE:

GOOD BOYS.

THE GAZETTE:

SEX GODS. OMG. ALL OF THEM OKAY. WATCH THEM LIVE. YOU FEEL UBER HIGH. TRUST ME.

GOD. THIS IS BAD.

i can't wait to fall in love with you.
you can't wait to fall in love with me.
this can just be summer love.

darling: please do cheer up. =D

school's smell is still on me. the smell of the morning air, still lingers. seeing you once again, made my day. =D

2007-09-28T02:51:00.000-07:00

LINKIN PARK'S

"The Little Things Give You Away"

Water grey
Through the windows, up the stairs

Chilling rain
Like an ocean everywhere

Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away

And now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

And six feet under water
I
Do

Hope decays
Generations disappear

Washed away
As a nation simply stares

Don't want to reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away

But there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

And six feet under water
I
Do

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

And six feet under ground now
I
Now I do

Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Little things give you away
Little things give you away

(Little things give you away)

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

(Little things give you away)

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

(Little things give you away)

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

(Little things give you away)

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

(Little things give you away)

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

(Little things give you away)

All you've ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you

(Little things give you away)

2007-09-28T02:38:00.001-07:00

what if tomorrow never comes? what is the last thing you want to do? or rather, who do you want to spend your last day on earth with?

i would like to spend it with, gordon. =D

i haven forgotten bout you, yet.

i think this dingdong will spend with her ah boy ah ah boy. LOL.'

2007-09-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

this post is updated in my livejournal! wahaha. had the sudden urge to update there.

http://thebloodpetals.livejournal.com

2007-09-25T11:20:00.000-07:00

steamboat dinner just now! the usual people came! wahahaha. daniel, weijun, germ, jiahui! my clinque in NYP. haha. missed them soooooooo much!!! it was like, some kind of reunion after so many years. haha. NONE OF THEM CHANGED AT ALL. still the same. tsk tsk. TIME TO GROW UP FELLAS. LOL.

the steamboat was nice. but kinda salty for some food. the prawns. ahhhh. nice. but they were LIVE. L.I.V.E i almost die-ed watching them twisting and turning. but still, i ate a few. AHHHHHHH. IM SUCH A FUCKER.

i'll just let the photos explain themselves. we had so much time to cam-whore cause we didn't play bowling. haha. cam-whoring more important.

LOOK AT THE PRAWNS. LOOK AT THEM. WILL PRAY FOR THEM TOMORROW.

THE PRAWN QUEENS. LOL. THEY CONQUERED THE PRAWNS FOR THE DAY.

AND AFTER EATING 1 PRAWN, I JOINED IN.

LOOK AT GERM'S EXPRESSION. CLASSIC!

THE CAM WHORING STARTED WHEN WE ARE DONE EATING AND HAD TO EXERCISE SOME MUSCLES.

WHAT ARE THEY DOING?

BACK TO CAM-WHORING.

We had to literally force him to take 2 photos with us.

look at weijun's face. haha.

we were the only active ones. LOL.

NIGHT PEOPLE. I LOVE THREADLESS! WEEEEEEEEE.

gosh. it's 3am now. off to bed. BYE!

2007-09-24T23:13:00.000-07:00

OMG. SECRET IS FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK NICEEEEEEEEEE.

i know im slow la. LOL. my mum just bought the vcd. DAMN NICE.

sobsob.

just finished CHUCK AND LARRY. FUNNY! NICE MOVIE! GO CATCH IT!

I NOW PRONOUNCE YOU, HUSBAND AND HUSBAND. YOU MAY KISS THE HUSBAND. LOL!

im bored. and the weather is fucking hot ~

2007-09-24T10:07:00.000-07:00

burberry has fragrance for children. 0.0

burberry launched a new fragrance, BURBERRY BRIT SHEER.

this is freaking nice. got a free sample from HER WORLD. the smell is, wonderful. BEST. i stopped using my Calvin Klein one.

SO GOING TO GET IT SOON~ YIPEEEEE.

PS: beetle still not found. and im really very bored to have blogged 3 entries. bahhhhhhhh.

2007-09-24T09:24:00.000-07:00

IM BORED.

*SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and the beetle is missing. fuck. i need to chase it out of my room! if not, i can't sleep!!!!

GOD. HELP. ME !

had a fun day today. went out with ely and her bf, shiquan. LOL. laughter the whole day. fun fun fun. haha.

and we are damn random people. lol. we can talk from A to X, den to M to B. LOL. sushi was great. had 2 soft shell crab handroll. i kept saying ham roll. lucky no one noticed. secret. haha.

took some photos. ELY! SEND ME LEH! YOU BLUFF ME. SAY TONIGHT WILL ONLINE. anyway, LOL. see la. random again.

I DECLARE MY NEW FOUND LOVE. OLD NAVY THEIR TEES ARE EXTREMELY COMFORTABLE AND PRETTAY ~~~~~~~~

AND, IM STILL LOVING THIS ANTIQUE EFFECT.

HAD TO TAKE SOME SELF-SHOTS LA. LOL. FIRST TIME WEARING MAH. SO, MUST TAKE SOME PHOTOS. HAHA. IM SOOOOO GOING TO ORDER MORE TEES FROM OLD NAVY.

LOOK AT THE STOMACH. LOL!

SPOT ME. AND I'LL GIVE YOU A KISS.

SHE TOOK THIS WHILE I WAS BATHING. DIDN'T KNOW UNTIL I SAW IT WHILE TRANSFERRING MY PHOTOS.

to those passerbys: i do not give a FUCK to how you people judge the way i dress. i DRESS to my liking. this is MY body, not YOURS. if YOU do not like it, DO NOT LOOK AT ME. i NEVER asked for your ATTENTION anyway. THIS IS MY STYLE. MY WAY OF DRESSING. i know im very FAT. this is ME. you are skinny people. so? does that make you superior? please. skinny people look good in everything. FAT PEOPLE TOO. but, i doubt you have any fashion sense of yourself. you just copy fashion icons. whatever people wear, you buy, you copy and 'DECLARE' it your 'OWN' style. 0.0
i LOVE the way i dress. so, SCRAM if it bothers you.

i cannot stand it when SKINNY people judge FAT people. so what if we are fat? we have a pair of legs, a pair of hands, a pair of eyes, a pair of ears, a mouth and a nose too. we just like to eat. what's wrong with that? urgh. these people seriously disgust me.

I AM FAT. AND IM LOVING IT

thou i just went to the gym with ely and her bf just now. LOL.

2007-09-24T09:22:00.000-07:00

there is a beetle in my room!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i dunno where is it now.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ~

2007-09-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

SAY GOODBYE by S CLUB 7.

In the years to come
Will you think about these moments that we shared

In the years to come
Are you gonna think it over
And how we lived each day with no regrets

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

In a year from now
Maybe there'll be things
we'll wish we'd never said

In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world
I'd make this last

Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, so it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Cause true love never dies

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll comfort you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in your heart,
is the only way for destiny
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts,
is the only way now for you and me
Though it's the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
`Cause a true love never dies

this is the most meaningful song of the year!

i have been doing this for 2 posts! LOL.

im very happy. i have recovered from my gloomy and insomnia state. cause,

I RECEIVED THE LETTER FROM SIM.

bad news is, i need to pay $1200+. fuck.
good news is, I DONT NEED TO RETAIN.

DO NOT NEED TO.
不有留班。

WAHAHAHAHAHA.

but, i have 2 more extra subjects. SO, I NEED TO START ON MY MATHS AND MPO NOW!

by the way, i told my mum. she's cool bout it. got a bit of lecturing here and there. i feel like i had kinda made her disappointed. but, she encouraged me on. so, HEHEHEHE.

SO, I HEREBY ANNOUNCE.

I, CHUA LIXUAN SAMANTHA, WILL NOT SKIP LESSONS ANYMORE! NO MORE LATE-NESS. (maybe once in a while >.< )

SEE THIS ELY, FATZ AND LINA! NO MORE PLAYING AH. MUST BE SERIOUS ALREADY. NO MORE F-ING HERE AND THERE.

LOL.

lets see how long i can keep to this. it's my motto from now on.

ROFL.

i updated my livejournal with 3 sprees. wahahaha. livejournal is fun! thinking of switching over. haha.

lj-cut is fun. aiya. livejournal nice to play la. fucking nice. LOL.

im still kinda sick. sucky. sushi tomorrow. after SO LONG! wahahaha. sushi! chawanmushi ~ oishi ~

and adelyn did something dumb today. LOL. and poor donald duck. let adelyn scold until, beh lim chu ah. LOL. lets see what adelyn will blog.

IM STILL WAITING ADELYN!

2007-09-21T08:33:00.001-07:00

WITH ME by SUM 41.

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what i did and so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,

With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

I don't want this moment to ever end.
Where everything's nothing without you.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

this has got to be the most beautiful song of the year.

oh great. im sick.

2007-09-20T10:21:00.001-07:00

i wonder,

why are guys afraid of cockroaches?

are they that scary that even GUYS are afraid of them?

let me know what you think of this. TAG ME BABAY ~~~

2007-09-20T01:47:00.000-07:00

i have to pay! oh gosh.

this is bad. i guess, this is God's way of punishing me. why cant i be some rich ass's daughter!

ANYWAY

late photos. haha. went for xiao long bao with the dingdong, miss elysia chan mali chan. haha. SUSHI HOR! NEXT WEEK. DONT FORGET.

me and my suan la mian. had too much that day. haha.
my face always IS so oily. damn.

the dingdong is waiting for her xiao long bao.

that was the first time i ate crystal jade's xiao long baos. i know, sua ku.
i didn't even know they had a restaurant that specialises in xiao long baos.

we went heeren next. cam-whored at the mirror behind of flesh imp. LOL.

had lots of fun thou it was only a short while. her handsome boyfriend came. HAHA.

LOOK AT MY FACE. IM LOL-ING AT MYSELF.

im glad you are my friend, ely. thou you are always f-ing me, i know you love me. LOL. haha. im seriously glad that you are my friend.
=D

while searching for blogskins (cause i was uber bored, i found this. )

went for my uncle's birthday last saturday. saw my nephew for the first time. lets hope he wouldnt look like his bastard father.

ragnall. i dunno how to spell la. LOL.

but his sister, breindel is still my favourite!

i look kinda shitty that day. had no clothes to wear. no one to play with. except breindel of course. haha.

LOOK AT HER. MY BREINDEL IS SOOOOOOOOO CUTE!

she is just so adorable. she resembles her mother ALOT.

she was playing with my phone. trying to take photos of herself.

i like this side of my face. LOL.

i was cam-whoring while waiting for that super tu woman, lao chen. in the end, i had to wait another 45 mins for her.

had aviators on. had sore eyes.

i like this effect. damn antique kinda look right. haha.

this is so arty ~

kel is one big spender. hahaha.

im blogging cause im seriously bored and i think im going to get a heat stroke soon. it's fucking hot!

2007-09-19T08:42:00.000-07:00

im kinda bored. my sis is painting in my room. i cant even blog in peace.

anyway, thanks to those who kinda consoled me. im passed that stage. i have thought it through, thou my head is still hurting and my teeth too.

I WILL NOT SCREW UP ANOTHER TIME.

photos up tomorrow.

IT'S MAHJONG TIME!!!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~

2007-09-17T21:29:00.000-07:00

oh well.

appeal failed. guess i have to redo everything.

i'll just take this as, a stage in my life. for being stupid.

im feeling, kinda sad thou. never had this feeling before. been too confident. and it sucked. promises broke.

i guess, doing afresh will be better. but, how?

2007-09-14T12:43:00.000-07:00

fir. you can come strangle me to death. the worst happened. =) but, im cool. kinda predicted it.

went to watch rouge assassin with dar-er-ling, laijie and jeremy. not bad. the whole story was cool! and it featured the japanese. haha. yes i know. im japan siao. lol.

had lots of fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i think if im not out with them today, i would be emo-ing at home. no point crying over spilled milk. no point regretting too. only have myself to blame. just hope that my appeal will at least let me pass 1 more subject.

massive photo upload!

the chalet photos will be a total disgrace. lol. i think the world should know how i look like when im drunk. FIRST AND LAST TIME. lol.

PHOTOS BEFORE THE DRINKING. WAHAHAHAHAHA.

drinking started after everyone bathed and were fresh.

and the drinks started pouring,

and we were still sober. it's just the first cup after all.
P.S: please pardon the hair. just bathed and chalet has no hair dryer.

everyone were chatting happily while drinks were being poured. the kick haven come yet.

laijie had to drink cause he lost.

however, he spat it out. -.- vodka leh. expensive you know. LOL.

so, everyone stopped. cause i was playing hei bai pei with jiahui. LOL. everyone was watching. half high already.'

now you see him.

now you dont. he was gone in 5 minutes. LOL. and we kinda recorded a video. FUCK FUNNY. LOL.

high already high already.

i was calm enough to take decent photos. but, look at the one beside me. LOL.

the partner was bored cause he can't drink. haha.

grace also abit gone already. but she was sober enough for big breakfast. LOL. she and ah de wanted big breakfast like siao. hahaha. as what i heard from the rest. i was wasted by then.

i love them! and i like this photo. i look sober right. but actually, im not. LOL.

and then, we started kissing each other.

we continued playing the hei bai pei. and gleny, gave us soft drinks instead of vodka. cause the 2 of us were seriously high already.

actually, i have totally forgotten what i did. gleny told me i hugged everyone. called shoon and started blabbling rubbish. lol. too hard core to mention here. it has something to do him. lol.

and this fella was sleeping throughout the whole commotion. haha.

look at jeremiah. he stole my hairband! >.<

and, the puking started at around 4+. i WILL NOT upload the one of me vomiting. only this one when i was feeling fucking miserable already.

okay. end of chalet photos. haha.

the sober me. lol. no la. was watching jeremy and laijie play pool while waiting for dar-er-ling to reach cine. me and elysia went to ask body decor how much they charge for smiley piercing. i want to do! $65. wait until i get my salary first. haha.

i like my jellies! damn comfortable la. i thought it will hurt in the beginning. but seriously, this is one of the most comfortable pumps ever!

i dunno why recently i kept buying stuff in this shade of pink. i bought a nike waterbottle of a darker pink. nice eh.i used to be a total pink hater. lol.

before the dinner, we cam-whored. haha.

jeremy and laijie smokes! LOL. just joking. they were playing with the cigarettes.

jeremy was trying to mimic someone. LOL.

he wants to take photo with me. but, who cares. LOL.
poor laijie. haha.

there you go, mr quek laijie.

left for grapevine. i like the new grapevine!!!!! wahahahaha.

den the piggy-backing started. LOL.

looks like she is really piggy backing me right. but actually, she isn't. im too fat for her. haha.

jiahui was body slapping laijie. haha.

laijie tried to, but failed. thus, both landed on the ground. hahahahaha.

I LOVE THESE SHOTS! DAMN NICE. HAHA.

and i shall end this, with a photo of my hardworking husband. LOL.

2007-09-12T03:44:00.001-07:00

IM GETTING MY RESULTS TOMORROW!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH.

PASS PASS PASS PASS PASS PASS.

PLEASE GOD! LET ME PASS EVERYTHING. I'LL DO ANYTHING!

yes. im that desperate.

2007-09-12T03:32:00.000-07:00

i became a merlion during the class chalet.
that feeling was so fucking miserable i thought i was dying on that night.
i guess i did tons of stupid stuff, embarressing myself in front of people whom im not close to.
i guess, well, that's the stupid sam when she's drunk.
LOL.

and sorry, del. for making you puke too. WAHAHAHAHAHA.

anyway, had tons tons tons of fun fun fun ! wahahahahaha. had time with my partner, auggy, ah de, glen ( although i was supposed to be angry with him for not coming to LP concert with me!), delphine and many many more!

the only sucky part was the merlion part. damn. it didn't hurt so badly before. i guess zhengyang they all must be shocked! LOL. and i can remember jiahui telling me that it's fun to see people being drunk. haha.

can someone tell me what EXACTLY did i do that night?

be back when i have more photos!

=D

2007-09-07T11:15:00.000-07:00

http://youtube.com/watch?v=OzFy3dRISxs

watch this movie. the middle part when they are dancing the sakura dance. fuck funny. lol.

nothing to blog bout. except,

CANT WAIT FOR THE CHALET.

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2007-09-07T11:13:00.000-07:00

RUNAWAY LOVE by LUDACRIS feat. MARY J.BLIGE

Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love
Runaway love

Now little Lisa is only 9 years old
She's trying to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she's all all alone and they never met her family
Mama's always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missing and nobody will listen
Mama is on drugs getting high up in the kitchen
Bringing home men at different hours of the night
Starting with some laughs -- usually ending in a fight
Sneak into her room while her mama's knocked out
Trying to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

Runaway love [x8]

Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step-dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she making up excuses
Bleeding on the inside, crying on the out
It's only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they always be tight 'til the end
Until one day lil Stacy gets shot
A drive by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's 'bout to run away and never come back.

Runaway love [x8]

Little Erica is eleven years old
She's steady trying to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops x to get rid of all the pain
'Cause she's having sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection he's using no glove
Never thinking 'bout the consequences of her actions
Living for today and not tomorrow's satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowing her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothing else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say she's about to run away and never come back.

Runaway love [repeats 'til end]

2007-09-06T10:29:00.000-07:00

i want to dye my hair pink and grey.

=(